My Faith

How I Found Peace (When I Felt Lost)

For a long time, I wasn’t okay.
I was angry at the world, always feeling heavy, and honestly I couldn’t find peace anywhere. I was so confused mentally and spiritually that I didn’t even feel human. I had dark thoughts, I felt lost, and at one point I even thought something was wrong with me… like I was living a life that didn’t make sense.

But deep down, I knew I needed real peace. Not distractions. Not a temporary calm. Real peace.

That’s when I found a book called Finding Peace Within, and it changed everything for me.

I read that book by myself every day, it hit me so hard that I cried at times. I had never experienced that before from reading a book, but something about it felt like my heart was finally being reached. It was like God was pulling me back when I didn’t even know how to reach Him yet.

After that, I bought my first Bible — a KJV Bible — and I got serious.

For about 4 months, I read my Bible three times a day:

Morning (before I even got out of bed to start my day)
Middle of the day
Night

During that season, I ghosted social media completely. I didn’t want distractions. I wanted God. I was reading on vacations, in restaurants, at fun places, at church — everywhere. I was determined to build a real relationship with Jesus and find my purpose.

And the more I read… the more my faith grew.

Then something happened that I’ll never forget.

I started having divine dreams.

Before getting closer to God, my dreams were always dark and heavy, like I was constantly in spiritual warfare. But this time it was different. I had a dream where I was sitting on a couch reading my Bible, and I felt God’s presence so strong that I asked, “God… is that You?” and thunder happened.

When I woke up, I looked it up and realized thunder is connected to God’s presence in the Bible, and I knew in my spirit: He really was with me.

Two months later, I scheduled my baptism for October 6, 2023, the day after my birthday. It was on a Sunday, and it was one of the best moments of my life.

After that… everything started changing.

I started forgiving people.
My mindset started shifting.
My peace came back.
Opportunities started coming.
And I started moving completely different.

I even cut all my hair off, not just as a style change, but because I was serious about starting fresh. I got more involved in church, started doing more community things, and I wasn’t living the same way anymore. It felt like I wasn’t just trying to “act saved” — I was actually becoming someone new.

Ever since then, I still have moments where God reminds me through dreams and real life:
finish the race He planned for me.

This page is here for believers and unbelievers, because if God could pull me out of that season… He can absolutely do it for you too.